Blood Pressure Follow up and Issues

So after failing the BP portion of my vital signs check off I went back at 4 and practiced with three people, got helped by the professors two more times and then retook the test and passed. It wasn't that I didn't know what I was doing, but that I was nervous as hell when I first got in there. So yeah, that's over and done with and I can breathe.

Now I have to focus on the Thorax and Lung Assessment as well as the heart and vascular assessment which shouldn't be that difficult either, but the partner that I have is a pain in the ass and I feel like she's making fun of me more than helping me pass this fucking skills check off. And the thing is that she doesn't know what she's doing either so when I try to help her she says "no, don't tell me how to do it," and I'm sitting there like "but you've fucked this practice lab up five fucking times already. Obviously you don't know what in the hell you're doing or you would have fixed the problem by now!" Urghh, I need to find someone else to work with. There are so many people that I can choose from, but I believe that they all have partners already and I'm stuck with this bimbo who'd rather laugh and joke and kid her way through these assessments than actually practice. Gawd. I'm just tired of these people. I'm so freaking quiet because I don't like the people that I have to work with and the people I would REALLY like to work with are in another lab hour altogether and I can't partner them I don't believe. If I can than I will, but we'll see. I may just have to touch this hairy girl, pass this lab and let her ass fail when she tries to check off.

I'm done trying to help people. When I have questions they laugh like I'm the dumb one here. I understand the material, but I need to find someone to work with that is just as dedicated to passing this class as I am. :( I'm tired. I'm exhausted and I just want these practice labs to be over. I know this isn't the end. I'm only a junior, but lord I can NOT WAIT until senior year. Three more semesters to go!! Please let them pass quickly!!!!!!!!!!!

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